HAVE YOU EVER FELT LOST? ALMOST LIKE YOU REALLY DON’T KNOW YOURSELF? IT REALLY SUCKS. I DON’T KNOW HOW I DEVIATED SO FAR FROM MY ORIGINAL PLAN OF LIFE. I WANTED TO BE A CHEF. I’VE ALWAYS HAD A SORT OF LOVE AFFAIR WITH FOOD, WHICH IS PROBABLY WHY I’M NOT A TWIG.
ANYWAYS, IT WAS ALWAYS A BLISSFUL MOMENT WHEN I COULD COOK A NEW RECIPE. I DON’T CARE MUCH FOR REPETITION AND THE MONOTONOUS STYLE OF LIFE. *CUE THE LUNCH MENU’S OF MY HIGH SCHOOL CAFETERIA* I SWEAR TO GOD I HAD CHICKEN QUESADILLAS AND HOT DOG 20 TIMES A YEAR.
THIS LOVE OF FOOD INITIALLY STARTED MY QUEST FOR CULTURAL KNOWLEDGE, BUT AFTER READING COUNTLESS BOOKS, BLOGS, AND WEBSITES ABOUT TRAVEL; I KNEW TRAVELING THE WORLD WAS MY DREAM.
MY FAMILY IS QUITE STRANGE. BASICALLY EVERYONE HATES EACH OTHER. MY GRANDMA HAD 7 SIBLINGS, SO I HAVE A TON OF COUSINS. THE THING IS I DIDN’T REALLY GET TO SEE THEM GROWING UP. SINCE MY FAMILY IS FULL OF WACK-JOBS, THE FAMILY FEUD HAS BEEN GOING STRONG FOR ABOUT 12 YEARS NOW.
MOST PEOPLE ARE DEFINED BY THEIR FAMILY, BUT I DON’T CONSIDER MYSELF THAT WAY BECAUSE I DON’T KNOW HALF OF THEM. WHICH BRINGS US FULL CIRCLE AS TO WHY I FEEL LOST.
I HAVE BEEN IN SEARCH OF MYSELF FOR A LONG TIME. I’VE ASKED FAMILY MEMBERS, THE FEW THAT SPEAK TO ME, ABOUT MY HERITAGE AND FAMILY TRADITIONS. THE MOST I’VE COME UP WITH IS THAT I AM PART GERMAN, SWISS, SWEDISH, DUTCH, ENGLISH, AND IRISH. PERFECT. I’M A COMBINATION OF 6 DIFFERENT ETHNICITIES AND CULTURAL BACKGROUNDS. JUST WHAT I NEEDED TO FURTHER THE UNDERSTANDING OF MYSELF.
JUST BECAUSE I KNOW MY ANCESTORS CAME FROM THOSE COUNTRIES DOESN’T EXACTLY HELP ME UNDERSTAND MY HERITAGE. MY FAMILY DOESN’T REALLY EMBRACE THIS DIVERSE HERITAGE EITHER. I’VE NEVER CELEBRATED AN ETHNIC HOLIDAY, JUST THE MAINSTREAM CHRISTMAS, THANKSGIVING, HALLOWEEN, 4TH OF JULY AND NEW YEARS.
THESE HOLIDAYS REALLY DON’T DEFINE WHO I AM, THEY DON’T SPEAK ABOUT WHERE I CAME FROM, AND THEY DON’T JUSTIFY MY EXISTENCE. I DON’T FEEL LIKE I CAN EMBRACE WHO I AM, WITHOUT FULLY KNOWING HOW I CAME TO BE. YOU CATCH MY DRIFT?
I DECIDED THAT I WOULD START A BLOG. IT WILL DEFINITELY BE DIFFERENT FROM WHAT YOU HAVE PROBABLY SEEN BEFORE. I DON’T PLAN ON TELLING YOU EVERY LITTLE BIT ABOUT MY LIFE STORY, BUT IT TECHNICALLY IS MY BLOG. REALLY THOUGH, I WANT TO TELL YOU ABOUT MY TRAVELS, THE THINGS I EXPERIENCE, AND THE PEOPLE I MEET. I HOPE TO TEACH YOU A LITTLE BIT ABOUT GLOBAL CULTURES. SO EVEN IF YOU CAN’T QUIT YOUR DAY JOB AND EXPERIENCE THE WORLD FIRSTHAND, YOU CAN READ ABOUT IT. I WANT TO FIND MYSELF AND SHARE IT. HOPEFULLY ENCOURAGE YOU TO TRY TO FIND YOURSELF.
SO WITHOUT FURTHER ADO, HERE ARE MY NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTIONS:
1.) TRAVEL THE WORLD
I KNOW THAT I WON’T REALLY ACCOMPLISH THIS. I KNOW I’M SETTING MYSELF UP FOR FAILURE, BUT I WANT TO BE REALISTIC WITH MY GOALS. I’M CURRENTLY A HIGH SCHOOL SENIOR, AND I PLAN ON GOING TO COLLEGE. SO EVEN THOUGH I WON’T BE ABLE TO TRAVEL THE WORLD, I CAN STILL HOPE FOR IT.
2.) DO YOGA
I FEEL LIKE THIS IS A PERFECT WAY TO FIND MY INNER PEACE. I FOLLOW A LOT OF YOGIS ON INSTAGRAM, AND THEY ARE MY TRUE INSPIRATION. NOT ONLY WOULD I BE BETTERING MY MIND, BUT ALSO MY BODY (WHICH NEVER HURTS TO DO).
3.) EXPERIENCE
EXPERIENCE THE WORLD. EXPERIENCE PEOPLE. EXPERIENCE EVERYTHING. JUST EXPERIENCE.
4.) KEEP BLOGGING
THIS IS PROBABLY THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE, BECAUSE I REALLY DON’T WANT TO FAIL AT IT. I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO HAVE A BLOG, BUT NEVER REALLY MATERIALIZED IT UNTIL NOW.
HAVE FUN IN 2015 AND SHARE YOUR EXPERIENCE! PREFERABLY WITH ME! COMMENT AND LET ME KNOW SOME OF YOUR NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS. HAPPY NEW YEAR’S, AND GOOD LUCK!
delaney 